Thursday, February 21, 2013

notes on the sleepy snuggles


the other day, my baby girl fell sound asleep on me after we'd been nursing, and i sat there as i often do, letting her get her rest the way i know she prefers to. these moments, for me, are when i feel the most peaceful, so this time i really tried to soak in every detail of sweetness... the smell and sound of each of her tiny little breaths, the feeling of her warm hand on my chest, her twitching little feet wrapped around my left arm, and the way she fits absolutely perfectly in my arms and across my lap... and i wrote it all down really quickly in my phone, where i keep a lot of my little notes and reminders. i wish we had a way to record all of the senses, you know? because we have words and photos and sound clips and videos, but smell and touch are such big ones. and i don't really fit so nicely like that on my mom anymore, ha! but i'd like her to be able to remember just how great it was when i did. then again, i think forgetting just a little bit probably makes it easier for us to keep moving forward in life. still. i hope when we get to heaven, all of the good feelings we've ever felt in life just wash over us and never leave. including this one, and pretty much every other feeling having to do with my baby maddalena.

10 comments:

  1. So sweet. The same exact feeling has come over me ... more than once. Love this!

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  2. Well said sweet momma! You are an excellent writer and I feel you have a way of putting how I feel about my little tiny boy down in words! xo www.morgan-hunt.blogspot.com

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  3. This is beautiful. I love how you said "I think forgetting just a little bit probably makes it easier for us to keep moving forward in life." So true. I find myself getting sad when I don't immediately remember some memories, but if I never forgot them, there wouldn't be any need for new ones.

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  4. Aaaawww beautiful post. I do miss these precious moments when my boy was a baby...

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  5. So sweet. I feel the same way, I try to cherish those moments as much as I can!

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  6. beautiful writing...i wish i could bottle up his smell and soft hands, so cute.

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  7. This is so sweet. I imagine your baby girl cherishing these words one day when shes older! I agree- i hope all of those best feelings and moments meet us again in heaven one day. I remember reading something by cs lewis about those never really being lost but instead are all little reflections of whats waiting for us.

    Eee you make me excited to be a mama!

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  8. B your posts has always been pretty sweet, but since you are a mommy, that amount of sweetness increased x 10000! I just can´t avoid crying after reading it! Lovely

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