the other day, my baby girl fell sound asleep on me after we’d been nursing, and i sat there as i often do, letting her get her rest the way i know she prefers to. these moments, for me, are when i feel the most peaceful, so this time i really tried to soak in every detail of sweetness… the smell and sound of each of her tiny little breaths, the feeling of her warm hand on my chest, her twitching little feet wrapped around my left arm, and the way she fits absolutely perfectly in my arms and across my lap… and i wrote it all down really quickly in my phone, where i keep a lot of my little notes and reminders. i wish we had a way to record all of the senses, you know? because we have words and photos and sound clips and videos, but smell and touch are such big ones. and i don’t really fit so nicely like that on my mom anymore, ha! but i’d like her to be able to remember just how great it was when i did. then again, i think forgetting just a little bit probably makes it easier for us to keep moving forward in life. still. i hope when we get to heaven, all of the good feelings we’ve ever felt in life just wash over us and never leave. including this one, and pretty much every other feeling having to do with my baby maddalena.