when we were engaged and still in college, i begged steven for a little black pomeranian. i found a breeder nearby with a couple of little puppies that matched that description, and we drove two hours to birmingham to visit two tiny black fuzzballs. both were so so precious!! but one in particular hopped right in my lap and licked me. that was my minnie. 🙂
she sensed my every emotion. she was me in dog form, though she had no notion of being an actual canine. when i was excited, she was excited. when i was content, she was content. and whenever i was upset, she looked right in my eyes as if to say, i know you’re not okay right now, but i’ll offer you my snuggles until you’re better! but for the last little while she’s been looking up at me, right in my eyes, with a look that begged, i’m not okay, can you pretty please help me? but i couldn’t. i couldn’t fix it. and i felt so much guilt over it. my poor minners.
and just like that… only 13 little years after making a fluffy black wish, i’m left with nothing but the memories. my minnie has been much less fluffy than once upon a time, much less vibrant… but her zest for life was still in there under her aging body… until it wasn’t anymore. and that’s the trouble with loving your creatures, isn’t it? inevitably the day will come when you begin to see them fade into a quiet shadow of what they once were… and as time goes by, you must remain strong and for them as you recall all the days that they were strong for you.
minnie loved big. she loved her first and forever kitty sister, sophie. she loved pool floating and porch sitting. she loved her toys, taking walks, opening presents, sneaking cat food, and spending time at the farm. but she loved me most of all. and oh, i love you forever, minnie belle.
Oh my heart breaks for you! She was loved and she loved. I am crying for you and remembering my little one (17 years Maltese) that I said ‘so long’ to in February. Hard, hard, hard.
Thankful you have precious distractions and other sweet loves.
thank you so much!! and i am sorry for your loss! 17 years is so good but of course not long enough. i am thankful for distractions, indeed!
You write beautifully. Minnie was loved and loved a great life. Felt all the emotions of when I lost my sweet aspen she was days shy of Turing 9.
thank you so much my fellow pom mom! i remember you losing aspen and i’m sorry once again! she had the best life with you.
Awww I know you loved you minnie. I’m so sorry for your loss. I love all the pictures of you two and loved seeing her from when she was a pup to see her with you as you became a mom. She was your baby!! Sending love.
thank you so much!! she was 100% my first baby. she had no idea she was a dog. 🙂
I’m so sad for you! All the feels for the four legged children in our lives and to see one declining and have to deal with their loss is just awful. Prayers for you and the kiddos in dealing with the emotions and grief that come with the loss of a loved fluffy baby.
thank you so much!! it’s a little strange and empty without her. and yes, it is so hard with kiddos, but i know it prepares them for even harder losses.