it’s my casey’s birthday today! he would be turning 30 years old! oh, i had hoped and dreamed and wished and prayed that he would make it to his 30th birthday. i really thought he would! but life had other plans. that happens sometimes, doesn’t it…i miss him so much. it’s almost worse now, you know? now that i’m past the relief of knowing he isn’t in pain. the worries and vet calls are over. and now i just miss him. i miss 19 years of him. and if i had known back in november just how hard these last weeks and months would be for me for many reasons without him even to run to… gosh, i’m not sure i could’ve faced the whole thing at all. [not that there was much choice!]
maddalena prays every night that casey is having fun in heaven. she prays that [steven’s grandmother] grandmama is giving him lots of exercise up there. she still cries sometimes that she misses him, holds her soft stuffed casey, and reads the book that was given to us by a sweet friend in his honor. it breaks my heart to see my baby girl sad, but also warms it to know how much he still means to her.
he was and always will be our boy! our good good boy. and even though i can’t wrap my arms around his neck or give him a million carrots and a bowl of grain or take copious amounts of birthday photos, i’m still really, really proud of this day.
i love you always, tasey basey!!! happy 30th birthday!!
[ps. the above photos were taken for our 2016 christmas card!! they are some of my very favorites now. :)]
It’s so wonderful you have these to always look back on! They are all such stunning photos! I’m so sorry for Maddalena. How heartbreaking! For both of you. I’m sorry for the loss my friend and how hard this has been for you all…
These are some of the best family photos you have posted! The ones with everyone, and especially the sweet ones of Maddalena on Casey’s back with a dreamy expression – such great memories to have. Your post made me cry, there is so much heartfelt emotion behind it, and I can so relate to the loss of your beloved Casey. Thank you for sharing and know you are not alone in grief, or experiencing it for extended times. Prayers for you and your family!
This post made me cry. I lost a dear fur-baby in March 2009 that still makes me ache with sadness….
You have wonderful, beautiful photos of your loves…..wish i had more.
I know you are eternally grateful that your littlest loves had time with your Casey.
thank you for your sweet words! and oh i’m so sorry to hear about your loss. it’s so hard. sending hugs!
Love all these! Happy Birthday Casey boy! Hope he’s enjoying some extra carrots in heaven today <3
thanks girly! me too!
all love…
xoxoxo!